inspired by sleep

like the next breath i will take
and emotion i feel;
like a newly born morning i wake,
and i know you are real.

aaand i'm over it.

looking at the irrationality shrouded in the past
and overcome with reality, regret, reason...
promising a future so absolutely intertwined,
looking at what lies ahead.
only then do i realize
what you mean to me.

offended

CHOKING ON HOW I REALLY FEEL (REASONABLE IRRATIONALITY),
I WONDER
WILL I OFFEND YOU LIKE THIS IN THREE YEARS TIME?
BITTER, SELFISH VENGEANCE BOILS
AND ALL I CAN DO IS WAIT.

nature

selfish,

apprehensive,

(un)predictable,

finicky.

dignified?

responsible?

strong?

wicked Mother Nature,

or is it me?

definitely unfinished

stay with me,
even when you don't want to
(when i don't want you to)
because i've finally realized
how selfish we all really are
(how selfish i am).
don't watch as i sink lower
into this audible silence.
come with me,
and i'll find a way to get you out
as long as i know you'd do it
all over again
for me,
as i would
for you.
lay with me,
regardless of the fact
that tears are unsettling
in my eyes
through yours.
drive with me,
though we're short on cash

...............

unfinished?

it made me wake up
from my impersonal reality
and fall into a state
which consists of
repressed silence.

it made me feel grounded--
not as a child but
as a human being
capable of incredible
emotion

that i wish, now,
i know how to hold at bay.
you've always meant so much to me
it's hard to believe,
it's hard to believe

the withdrawal from something
i didn't want
when it was available,
that this really did happen
and isn't just some twisted glimpse of Hell,

but i know you are elsewhere.

unlike me

incomplete happiness.
unfulfilled ambitions.
fleeting dreams.
unattainable ambitions.

found a way to be content.
striven for achievement.
prayed for hope.
realized truth,
strength,
boundaries.